Wednesday, 20 February 2008

bollox

so Current mood: almost myself
the little bits of wool wnt from half a head of purple braids...to a few,i think a few looks best...


i watched girl interupted and got myself into my weird head space,at the moment i really want to go down the river cos the moons out and its dark...tho this would be a little difficult right now.

!.eternal unsine f a spotless mind
".girl interupted
£.donnie darko
$.13
%.pulp fiction
^.knocked up
&.trainspotting
*.spun
(.sunshine
).the fontain

i dont want people to think that im just a normal peson who thinks these films are just good because they make youthink.in fact i dont really care what anyone thinks,otherwise i wouldnt be wriiting this,im writing this because i dont want to forget this feling and myspace seems to be the easiest thing to write it down in...once again i find this quite sad.
but hey,i dont give a fuck.

trying to explain this is very hard

maybe il try something else

...and half those films remind me of daisy


and now i find myself trying another source of closure...if thats the right word.i geuss it is,i mean things keep happening,and i want to do something to end it...im just sick of having to sit down because i feel exhausted all of a sudden,or i feel weak...i tried to take multivitimins but they made me feel sick...and now this has turned into a thing of me ranting..which i didnt want.

i just want some change,i want soemting exciting to happen,maybe then ill start feeling more myself again..being with dan has made me so happy,and ive been feeling more and energetic...then itl just crumble,nothing thats hes done,i dont know why it does it.

but when i get in a head spave like this,thats when it happenes.

i need to stop watching films that make me think

Wednesday, 13 February 2008

more

nothing fake,
nothing hidden,
no apologies,
half of it is what people see,
the other what i want to be,
i will not change for status,
but perhaps for peace of mind,
the way i am is what i know,
there is no other kind,
so think of me what you will,
im learning not to care,
i will shove metal in my face,
and kill my ravaged hair,

im lacking motivation,
and falling down some stairs,
i need a source of income,
so people know i care,
indecieceve,complicated,completly un-aware,
passionate and easily adicted,
and loving every stare.
arm scars and silly teenage years
i want out of thisand be bigger when i apear

Monday, 11 February 2008

roses

on saturday dan had a party and i managed to eat glass,the classy little thing that i am.imagine me,little black dress,off my face, and running around the house....its a wonder i beat troy on guitar hero...im down stairs and all of a sudden got really angry,for the life of me a cant remember why.
but the next thing i know theres glass everywhere,and im trying not to laugh.so instead i went upstairs and did the whol"im crying cos im drunk thing"

i really had no reason to,sorry danny..really sorry.
vauge memories of flapjakes and angel delight.sean made me beans on toast at five in the morning...after i woke up from passing out at one...

and my sleep pattern isnt quite there yet.

but today was lovely lovely
it was sunny and dan ,et me from art with roses and bough me lunch
i well love him
=-)
roses

Friday, 8 February 2008

song in progress

nothing fake,
nothing hidden,
no apologies,half of it is what people see,
the other what i want to be,
i will not change for status,
but perhaps for peace of mind,
the way i am is what i know,
there is no other kind,
so think of me what you will,
im learning not to care,
i will shove metal in my face,
and kill my ravaged hair,

im lacking motivation,
and falling down some stairs,
i need a source of income,
so people know i care,
indecieceve,complicated,completly un-aware,
passionate and easily adicted,
and loving every stare.
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