last night

last night when i went to sleep,i filled my head with horrible thoughts that always come to me when im half asleep.things about dying at any second,and how i think im ill one second and fine the next...
when i fell asleep i had a very disturbing dream,and it was very long,because i woke up at hallf two...half an hour ago..

i drempt that i was a lawyer,and that i was living with my freinds ozzie and sammy.
aparently all the people i worked with were still very causious of me because i had tried to kill myself a while back.They were all very against this,i dont really know why.

anyway the dream goes on quite normaly,and then im comming home from work.and theres a tape on the sopha.im putting it in the machine and my hands are shaking.
and ozzie comes on screan saying that shes sorry,and that she didnt have a choice.

it cuts out,and i run to ozzies room,to find her soaked in blood with her eyes wide open.i ring for an ambulance.and then it cuts out to another meeting at work,they are all looking at me as if i was some kind of diesiese.
and then i get fired.

and in the last part of the dreamim lying on the loor of our flat in complete tears,sammy comes in tells me its ok,she understands that im hurting,and hugs me.

then i wake up crying,when i stopped i looked at my phone to discover i have a text from ozzie saying shes had a ft and fallen down some stairs.

the whole thing has freaked me out to the point of me still shaking.